Armageddon

Moving Toward armageddon – Micheal Baigent

I believe that the author is viewing religion from a secular view in which religion with organization is not a good thing for him after all. If you read the whole book, it just criticizes all three main Abrahamic religions: Judaism, Christianity, and Islam, by giving some sort of proves, and history. The main idea is that all three religion pay their attention on a place, a holy land called Jerusalem. Why this place is so important? This is because this place where all three religion apocalyptic view as a place where the messiah will come, and the final fight between the evil and the divine forces in Armageddon. I understand that the author’s approach is mainly want to convince the reader to know more about the radicalism of the three main religions, and also what will be in future if people embrace and involve deeply inside it. He is the one who stand for the truth that God may not be exist, and all the texts either from Torah, Bible, or even Koran, is just a piece of art that derive from imitation of others cult and culture. He would like to remind the people of America that don’t fanatic for Jesus, as if we do so, the world will be end very soon because of our radicalism. Islam wait for the Mahdi to come back in Jerusalem to reign the world from the capital, and fight with dajjh, which is the Antichrist. Christians are waiting for the second coming of Jesus, the rupture and judgment day, and reign in New Jerusalem. While the Jews waiting their messiah to come back to reign like a king, and rebuild the temple of Solomon for their God, Yahweh. All these makes conflict more complicated as, more radical group forms from each religion that will put the world at risk. After all, the author gave a grey ending for the book, which I think is like encourage us not to believe any one of it, the religion, and also mainly not religion is the matter, but the individualism is more appropriate, for the world now. I think this book had given me a very good perspective on the three religion in an secular’s eyes. Moreover, it is informative that gives us a lot of challenge that makes me have the initiative to find the truth myself as a Christian. It doesn’t bend down my beliefs but it stimulate and trigger my instinct to hold and protect my beliefs from the arrows and swords from the people which they against my God.

The Enlightenment of Words

Happy New Year for myself.

As the is the new year ahead, I felt that is a great need to renewing myself for many important areas for me to develop. What i cannot lack of is the Words of God. I never be truthful to myself before that I'm not really sufficient is in His words as His words is the light of my path and the strength of my souls. C.S. Lewis said that :"Their delight in the law (words of God)is a delight in having touched firmness;like the pedestrian delights in feeling the hard road beneath his feet after a false shortcut had entangled him in a muddy fields." I know my security should be from God, and the most easiest way I know more about Him is through His words. Like Joshua 1:8, "This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success." For a leader, from here I need to spend more time in the Word and think about it all the time. Moreover, I need to have obedience that results from such exposure to the Word which is the key to success.
Carl Henry, an American theologian said that:"A satisfactory religion must satisfy. But satisfy what and why? The Greek mysteries satisfied the emotions; brute force can satisfy the will; but Christianity satisfies the intellect because it is true, and the truth is the only everlasting satisfactions."

I felt I'm small and more to study through His words in my lifetime,

therefore, this quotation from Dietrich Bonhoeffer, become my prayer and also proclamation:

Because I am a Christian. Therefore, everyday in which I do not penetrate more deeply into the knowledge of God's Word in Holy Scripture is a lost day for me. I can only move forward with certainty upon the firm ground of the Word of God. And, as a Christian, I learn to know the Holy Scripture in no other way than hearing the Word preached and by prayerful meditation.

Because I am a preacher of the Word, I cannot expound the scripture for others if I do not let it speak daily to me. I will misuse the Word in my office as preacher if I do not continue to meditate upon it in a prayer. If the Word has become empty for me in my daily administration, if I no longer experience it, that proves I have not let the Word speak personally, to me for a long time. I will offend against my calling if I do not seek each day in prayer the word that my Lord wants to say to me for that day."

For me, it's crucial for beginning the year with the words of God.

Let my words walk and make it counts in this brand new year, by His words accompanies.

武侠世界的无奈

我特别喜欢武侠世界的自由，在里面我们可以很天马行空，很多可以发挥的想象力，让我们的心融入武侠世界里。我喜欢令孤冲的潇洒、也喜欢杨过的放荡、也喜欢自己就在那世界当中闯荡江湖。

活在武侠世界，无非让自己在现实生活不能够实现的欲望，放在自己的想象里头，这就好像想像自己是一个武林高手，但是有打遍天下无敌手，只求一败，可惜没有敌手，只好孤独终老。有些则想隐姓埋名，做田野隐士，卧虎藏龙。有些则参宗结派，有自己的党羽，发挥影响力。现实中，也是如此。我们看见我们的国家，有些政治人物，拿自己好比一个武侠剑客，流浪四方，天撒孤星，剑一出鞘就见血。联盟在没有撕破脸之前，笑里藏刀握手问好。其实心里却在发射万个含沙色影，无毒无臭的暗器。华山论剑当然少不了，称号封了又在封，看似臭屁的也放上去，似乎为自己立下江湖没人不晓得的鼎鼎大名。

武功底子，对于一个江湖人来说，可是不能少的。换作现今的人，内功深厚就是那些城府深的人。当我们看到这些人的时候，就好像看见冷血剑客，无情剑下杀个鸡飞狗走的。暗箭在公司当中，随时都会着火乱射。老板的枪口，只有一柱顶天，没有办法回马枪。

许多的人，经历了风风雨雨，就金盆洗手，收山养老。但是，还是有些老不死，喜欢东山再起，出来呼天唤雨，闲得很，就怕没有事情会发生。

武侠的世界，是刺激的，也是很无奈的。因为身为主角的自己，没有办法十全十美的把自己化作生活当中自己的江湖。我想，是时候想想生命意义是在于一生的厮杀，还是生命中还有更好的事能够成就。

义气，为义者如何而行呢？圣经又告诉我们，在世上没有一个义人。我想，经过一番的厮杀，武功见高低了，自己也肯定会内力大损，有些走火入魔。我想，在基督里，我们也学习做武林高手，但是却不一样，我们的能够是圣灵，我们的宝剑是圣经。虽然江湖一片荡漾，但是我们可以画出一股清流，让江湖当中能够流入平安的能力。

浩瀚沙海中的一粒沙

“我只是浩瀚沙海中的一粒沙
渺小且缺乏”

当我在奥克兰的时候，教会中一位姐妹叫欣吟，就先唱着一首歌，让我深有感触。因为，我本身也就像浩瀚当中的一粒沙，渺小有看起来乏力的。但是，我的心一直回荡着，上帝！你这么会用我这样的人？我在这里做您的工作？我自己也会没有想到我会来到这个地方，一个充满熟悉的人又陌生的土地。我想到我只是一粒沙，我能做什么？

我不是自怜，也不是觉得很苦，只是我欣赏上帝在我身上的作为，是很美妙的。我的生命就像一个配套，而我到奥克兰来的时候，是配套中的一份。我不知道我能够成就的是有什么，但是我会尽我的能力去发掘。

沙虽然小，但是可以聚沙成塔，泥土没有沙混合的话，建房子就不稳啦。

没有沙，也看不见一望无际的海滩，也不能感受沙的美。

上帝的创造是美的，创造我也是一样。

我是 - - 一粒上帝的沙。

The blessed moment 2

If not God, who will be? Sometimes what i think i am is no longer important.
Yesterday, we have carenet in which we need to invite new people and will go for a movie. but, as i know, i don't have enough cash anymore, because give it to petrol, lunch, what i left it jsut 26rm on sunday. That is what i have. I pray to God, and assked, how is it? how can i manage? in the morning we have a powerful service, in whichh God is really moving, i felt touched by God too, in which He reminds me and when i se Him, i saw myself many holes, on my body, in the altar call. By the time, in which wegive offering, PAstor said give our best to God, i pray to the mony in my wallet, in which i dunno i need to give how much. i just grab around 6rm i think? put into the ofeering bag, i count inside my heart i think i left Rm2o in my pocket oh.. so how? IN the night, some of the guys going they may not have enough cash too, normally, in the activity, i will give the cash first then they will pay me back. Because they are students...
RM20 left, i skip my lunch, meeting, and then i send some of them back, and i borrow the MBO movie membership card from PAtrick, because i changed the venue for movie due to the price is lesser, if compare to the original place in which is time square, everything that is expensive.
By the time i finished the meeting and send some of them back, Xiu Zhu follow me back home because she want to watch with us, and in the car we talk to her mom. Her mom not agree to let xiu zhu to join us because she said she dun have enough money for the movie. Then i dunno why i said i will give her a treat for the movie, and promise wil send her back too. without thinking that, my cash is not enough, MAn, i tell you, i dunno how can i do it. RM20, 10 for myself, 10 for xiu zhu, and may not left any cash left since a movie ticket is about 9 or 10rm. then i decide no need to eat dinner too. and collect cash from them who watch movie, rather than collect from them after movie.
i felt don't know what sould i do, since everyone there, maybe they expect me to give it out, but i dun have any? Before went for the movie, i went home to change clothes. At that time, i keep on finding money from myroom, because i think i lost RM250 jeannie's money in my room, but i just keeping on find the money but in vain. I checked the locker, my wardrobe, and anything. In the end, i just sit down, on my bed, and i can onyl pray. Ican't borrow, my father's money, or other people' money.
i just pray, and i just go by God's faith. Dunno how, but i'll go and see.
When i go, i received a call, in which wei pin called me about the movie, and i told him we will wait at the parking lot to wait for others to go together for the movie. Later, wei pin said he will not go but he need my help to transfer something. Therefore i asked him to come to maluri to meet togeher in the parking lot near the church. Then what he wan to meet me is he want to return money to me, he said he owed me last year, and he wan to return that today>>> so weird why today? hahaha, he returned RM 60 to me, and i tought i don't have any money suddenly he gaveme a lump sum. at that time, i think i try to shout Hallelujah.......!!!!!!!!! because, haha God is doing his work. MOre than that, after the movie, i fetch pei yi home, then sudden'y he gave me back another lump sum of money in which is Rm 45, she said she owed me last two years for the camp. And she returned another 35rm to me as thedinner in hua xua da tuan yuan give it back to li yin. Actually is my money lah. hahaha, i got all money around RM140. in total. When i have all the money in my pocket, and alone in the lift. I awas just cry, and dunno wat to say..... is really God's working... on Me.

The most blessed moment I

I's experienced of of the wonder in which i think it is in my life, touched by God. Previous two days, it proves to me in my heart that, God still doing His work, on those who beleive in Him, and He still keep an eye on us and show us that He is our Provider. One of it in which i don't mean to tell it to others is throughtout weeks what i had fast praying for, Shan's sickness, was listened by God. When i knew that Shan's has the heart problem, and i want to do somethng for her. However, man, her operation fees is really high, i would like to do something, but i just don't know how?! I saw the needs in her blog, and i want to do somthing, money? or anything? Erh, God, i just felt helpless at that time. What i can do, i just can pray for her, Let God to be the Master in this time. I have several days of fast praying to God, don't know how is it, i just pray and pray and pray. oI hope i can hear aswer from God. However, i didn;t hear anything from God. None at all.
Then last saturday when we have a special revival meeting, we have a special geust from Hong Kong in which is Pastor Yang is the speaker for the meeting. After He preached, he had called an altar call, in which the first calling is really mesmerizing me. He called out:" who is the one who has a heart problem, haven't heal yet, ... ..." She went out and received the prayers. I don't know she was healed or not. But, what is really in my heart that touched me is that, i felt my prayers were listened by God, i really touched and thanks God all the timefor the thigns that He is doing now. God confirmed me that, what i prayed, is not just empty, but every word He also received. I just felt emotional, but i controlled myself, and starting to pray to God, praise His name.
If not God, who will be?

我的心，这只野鸟

我的心，这只野鸟
我的心，这只野鸟，
在你的双眼中找到了天空。
它们是清晓的摇篮，
它们是星辰的王国。
我的诗歌在它们的深处消失。
只让我在这天空中高飞，
翱翔在静寂的无限空间里。 只让我冲破它的云层，
在它的阳光中展翅吧。

泰戈尔