The blessed moment 2

If not God, who will be? Sometimes what i think i am is no longer important.
Yesterday, we have carenet in which we need to invite new people and will go for a movie. but, as i know, i don't have enough cash anymore, because give it to petrol, lunch, what i left it jsut 26rm on sunday. That is what i have. I pray to God, and assked, how is it? how can i manage? in the morning we have a powerful service, in whichh God is really moving, i felt touched by God too, in which He reminds me and when i se Him, i saw myself many holes, on my body, in the altar call. By the time, in which wegive offering, PAstor said give our best to God, i pray to the mony in my wallet, in which i dunno i need to give how much. i just grab around 6rm i think? put into the ofeering bag, i count inside my heart i think i left Rm2o in my pocket oh.. so how? IN the night, some of the guys going they may not have enough cash too, normally, in the activity, i will give the cash first then they will pay me back. Because they are students...
RM20 left, i skip my lunch, meeting, and then i send some of them back, and i borrow the MBO movie membership card from PAtrick, because i changed the venue for movie due to the price is lesser, if compare to the original place in which is time square, everything that is expensive.
By the time i finished the meeting and send some of them back, Xiu Zhu follow me back home because she want to watch with us, and in the car we talk to her mom. Her mom not agree to let xiu zhu to join us because she said she dun have enough money for the movie. Then i dunno why i said i will give her a treat for the movie, and promise wil send her back too. without thinking that, my cash is not enough, MAn, i tell you, i dunno how can i do it. RM20, 10 for myself, 10 for xiu zhu, and may not left any cash left since a movie ticket is about 9 or 10rm. then i decide no need to eat dinner too. and collect cash from them who watch movie, rather than collect from them after movie.
i felt don't know what sould i do, since everyone there, maybe they expect me to give it out, but i dun have any? Before went for the movie, i went home to change clothes. At that time, i keep on finding money from myroom, because i think i lost RM250 jeannie's money in my room, but i just keeping on find the money but in vain. I checked the locker, my wardrobe, and anything. In the end, i just sit down, on my bed, and i can onyl pray. Ican't borrow, my father's money, or other people' money.
i just pray, and i just go by God's faith. Dunno how, but i'll go and see.
When i go, i received a call, in which wei pin called me about the movie, and i told him we will wait at the parking lot to wait for others to go together for the movie. Later, wei pin said he will not go but he need my help to transfer something. Therefore i asked him to come to maluri to meet togeher in the parking lot near the church. Then what he wan to meet me is he want to return money to me, he said he owed me last year, and he wan to return that today>>> so weird why today? hahaha, he returned RM 60 to me, and i tought i don't have any money suddenly he gaveme a lump sum. at that time, i think i try to shout Hallelujah.......!!!!!!!!! because, haha God is doing his work. MOre than that, after the movie, i fetch pei yi home, then sudden'y he gave me back another lump sum of money in which is Rm 45, she said she owed me last two years for the camp. And she returned another 35rm to me as thedinner in hua xua da tuan yuan give it back to li yin. Actually is my money lah. hahaha, i got all money around RM140. in total. When i have all the money in my pocket, and alone in the lift. I awas just cry, and dunno wat to say..... is really God's working... on Me.

The most blessed moment I

I's experienced of of the wonder in which i think it is in my life, touched by God. Previous two days, it proves to me in my heart that, God still doing His work, on those who beleive in Him, and He still keep an eye on us and show us that He is our Provider. One of it in which i don't mean to tell it to others is throughtout weeks what i had fast praying for, Shan's sickness, was listened by God. When i knew that Shan's has the heart problem, and i want to do somethng for her. However, man, her operation fees is really high, i would like to do something, but i just don't know how?! I saw the needs in her blog, and i want to do somthing, money? or anything? Erh, God, i just felt helpless at that time. What i can do, i just can pray for her, Let God to be the Master in this time. I have several days of fast praying to God, don't know how is it, i just pray and pray and pray. oI hope i can hear aswer from God. However, i didn;t hear anything from God. None at all.
Then last saturday when we have a special revival meeting, we have a special geust from Hong Kong in which is Pastor Yang is the speaker for the meeting. After He preached, he had called an altar call, in which the first calling is really mesmerizing me. He called out:" who is the one who has a heart problem, haven't heal yet, ... ..." She went out and received the prayers. I don't know she was healed or not. But, what is really in my heart that touched me is that, i felt my prayers were listened by God, i really touched and thanks God all the timefor the thigns that He is doing now. God confirmed me that, what i prayed, is not just empty, but every word He also received. I just felt emotional, but i controlled myself, and starting to pray to God, praise His name.
If not God, who will be?

我的心，这只野鸟

我的心，这只野鸟
我的心，这只野鸟，
在你的双眼中找到了天空。
它们是清晓的摇篮，
它们是星辰的王国。
我的诗歌在它们的深处消失。
只让我在这天空中高飞，
翱翔在静寂的无限空间里。 只让我冲破它的云层，
在它的阳光中展翅吧。

泰戈尔

The struggles

Erm... I don't either how to start or, how to say, i feel something different changing in my heart. In which this changes what i felt, is a feeling in which i didn't experience before, it's new to me. I don't know how to handle it. Many things just go around me, and i felt i need to be steady.