The time has come...

The time has come for a change. In Which i long for it. This is deep inside my heart that i must do somehting before anything will be too late. I'm not a genius, I'm not a rich guy, i'm not a special talented person, i just an ordinary guy, who also like you, struggles the 9am - 5pm life; and i wish to have some changes. Some changes in which can bring a revolutionary change in my life.

I felt God somehow spoken to me, I'm His servant who serve and who will serve this world. I don't know how to start and how to begin. What i know is i cannot be timid, i must be strong and courgeous. In which what God wants me to do.

Several i experince the crisis in which i didn't go through before. I felt frustrated, challenged and in the same time, paradox. I can feel the heartbeat inside myself. I felt that i must GO now if not i will regret for the rest of my life.

My father can't afford to take care of me anymore. Nevertheless, it's time for me to grow up, it's time for me to have dreams in which not only i fulfill my own dreams but also for my father, my family, my church and my heavenly father.

I must be strong and have the courage that what i will be doing will affect and change my destiny. I know i must depend on some bigger power to help me. I believe in God. In god I trust. When i say this, i remind myself that, in God i trust in which the faith inside me, the total character i'm possessing, the attitude that i'm carrying out everyday, it matters me, it become one of my responsibility to show that i trust in God. God can change anything, in me.

I may guide by the Holy spirit to teach me how to go further to way for God's will. I need to be sharp, delegent, and in the same time, i need to improve everything that i need to do something to change the current situation that i'm heading. I'm some sort like the author for Awaken the Giant Within , Mr. Anthony Robbins, in which i'm old enough, but i still felt poor inside, and nothign can be considered "achievement" in my lifetime. Lord, in my prayer, i want to change, this is the thing that i didn't tell others.

I can, I will, I must do this... The time has come...